Hello my friends on this journey. Today in my quest to heal childhood trauma from narcissistic parent abuse, I am looking at the charisma trap. More specifically how notoriously charismatic people are often predators in disguise. A heartbreaking incident in our community involving a school dean and parent, was caught in incestuous pedophilia made this hit home for me.
The Communal Narcissist Predator
Let's just sit with that for a minute, educator, teacher, mentor of students. What a perfect cover those are for CSA. He was actually the one responsible for implementing FERPA and CSA protocol within the school. What better way to hide your own abuse than as the one children lean on for safety?
The Closet Saboteur
And here's the clincher, for me. Amid the outrage, people also expressed shock that's such a "charismatic" man could be capable of such things. Why, he was a father of eight children, loving wife and family? Pillar of the community, youth minister. How could this happen, was wondered at. So I was saddened, but shocked, no. It's dangerous to put anyone beyond reproach. This is how pedophiles go undetected. Because we shield them. But behind the "immunity of community" is the first place we should be looking.
Dressed to Kill
Many people labor under the misunderstanding that pedophiles have a stereotypical look. That they are grubby, fringe-dwelling ne're-do-wells. That because someone wears cool clothing, looks good, is a "good Christian" and upstanding member of the community, he cannot also be guilty of heinous crimes. The fact is that his reputation is exactly what makes him a prime candidate for abusive and exploitative behavior. We need to start looking past the costume to the character inside.
The Ironclad Charismatic
And that character is arrogant and above all rules. He believes he is bulletproof behind the Kevlar of his public image. And I realize that I knew and have always known since I was a child that such people were dangerous. I have never trusted "large and in charge" smooth talkers, people with popularity cult followings. Like big personality celebrities, ministers and leaders who can "do no wrong" in the eyes of their devotees.
"Charm is a sales tactic. It's the big toothy grin of the used car salesman who's pushing a lemon and making you feel privileged to have your pocket picked."
The Charm Trap
The paradox lies in the charisma trap, the "shiny charm" of the predatory narcissist, as Dr Ramani puts it. Charm and charisma are facades behind which lurk ruthless, Machiavellian egomaniac BSers. These charlatans are only charming to get their way. They are extortionist who use charisma to get you to give them something you shouldn't. It lures the unsuspecting into a false sense of security. And then BANG! Gotcha. He's fleeced them and they didn't even see it happen.
The Narcissistic Injury Reveal
Don't believe me? Just try saying "no" to these so-friendly shysters. Just watch the charm turn to sneering, scornful, narcissistic rage. Or try outing him. But good luck. Suddenly, he's not such a nice guy. His pride is wounded. He's vindictive, and venomous. Or, even worse, he's fake penitent, vulnerable, oh so sorry. He weaponizes his "humility" to regain trust and then strikes. Very often, the victims end up being treated worse than the offender ever is. Which is why so many keep quiet. My narcissistic parents were downright vicious if they felt threatened. It is a frightening vendetta that never gets satisfied.
They can turn charm on like a switch. And terrifyingly, turn it off just as easily.
The Flock Mentality
Unfortunately, these people often have a lot of flying monkeys. And being the only one saying that the Emperor has no clothes puts you in their sites. They DARVO (deny, attack, reverse victim offender) in defense of their narcissist cult leader. They crybully and call you the bad guy. They never believe a word said against him. They gaslight that YOU caused the problem, brought his creepy behavior on yourself. You were too sensitive, imagining things, exaggerating, showing off for attention. All of which cannot simultaneously be true. But flying monkeys aren't known for common sense.
The Hazing of FOG
And so you don't say anything. You feel FOG (fear, obligation and guilt) to these people. You know they say you're just jealous of their success. You're spreading spiteful gossip or starting smear campaigns. Even your own friends don't believe you. So you start gaslighting yourself that the Emperor's new clothes look fine. You preserve the shiny image. Who's going to believe you anyway? There is no winning, nor even breaking even against a charming narcissist. There is only losing.
What living in a narcissistic family cult taught me
I know because I was indoctrinated into a narcissistic cult called "family." I was subjected to them, made to serve them as an acolyte. I was gaslighted and catfished by these predators in parents clothing. I believed and trusted them because I was a trauma bonded betrayal blind, innocent and vulnerable child that no one protected. Everyone just turned a blind eye their abuse, neglect, parentification, exploitation, endangerment, deprivation, invalidation, scapegoating, abandonment and dehumanizing of me.
Once bitten, twice shy
But ironically this inability to see my parents traitorship and betrayal, somehow gave me an uncanny ability to see it in others. I can't always do much about it besides see it. I have never trusted a charismatic or charming person since. Did I miss out on genuine people along the way? Eh, maybe? But it also kept me from getting taken advantage of.
✀Homework for Healing
- Beware of charmers. If someone seems too good to be true, believe they are a fraud.
- Watch for masks slipping. See the narcissistic smirk behind the sanctimonious smile.
- Beware of their flying monkeys. They bite and they shit everywhere.
- Trust your gut. Literally, recognize that sick, nervous feeling in your stomach when predators are around. It's there to warn you.
- Do the Angelou. When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time. Don't gaslight yourself that you misunderstood. You heard them correctly.
- Get away from them. Go low or no contact. Don't get lured in. You don't owe them any loyalty. You don't owe them anything.
- Take care of yourself, please. Look for safe people. Your sanity is more important than their vanity.
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